First off, I would like to say that I joined the blogging world because I was inspired by all the other wonderful blogs that I have read and seen. So, being the clueless girl I am, I thought that I could start a blog that everyone would like. Little did I know, by driving myself to work in way that would cause everyone one to like me, would also cause me to lose my one style and ideas. You see, I believed that if I were just like the other bloggers, I have a successful blog, that would make me happy. When I tried being like them, I forgot what I really was like, so I produced content that ending making very unhappy. So, this was the first reason why took such a long break. So, I could find myself, in this pile of other people
Second off, I thought this would be a piece of cake. Like, come on, how hard could it be to stand in front of a camera and pose? right. Well, let me tell it wasn't a piece of cake, it was more like cutting a piece of brick with a butter knife. For one thing I was, well still am hugely camera shy. I don't know what is wrong with me but I when ever a camera is pointed at my face, the last thing I want is my picture taken. What I really want is to just magically have my picture done with, without my posing, so I can get to the blogging part. Okay, after the picture comes the editing, which to me is like rocket science. Why am I not good at editing? I thought I would learn as time went by, clearly I did not, and people were start to notice my lack of editing skills. This made me very self conscious, and I started lose my desire to blog. This also resulted in my break.
You are probably wondering why I am telling all this. This article is being published, as I don't want keep on lying to myself, by saying I don't have time or the means to do anything. I want to confront the truth by making it public, so I would be motivated enough to continue doing what I love.
So sorry for the incredibly wordy and long post. I promise the next posts will be much better, and worth while. Thank you for your time. Hope you have a great week ahead. Seen you soon.